Then Came the Morning

Frank has school this weekend and I would have loved to have gone with him....but this was Amanda's birthday and Rebecca and I were planning to use the weekend to spend time together as Still Magnolias.  Last night I got home and finished reading a book I had started earlier in the week.  I actually enjoyed the time alone and before I knew it it was nearly midnight. Before going to bed I looked up Heart of the Wood on YouTube so I could practice my part for the studio. While I was there....I found one called Sweet Emmy Lou and loved it (I am a huge Emmylou Harris fan)....but then....I found it....I just could not leave it alone....there was another song by Joey and Rory, To Say Goodbye that captured my attention.....and I listened to it.  I should have left it alone.  I sat on my couch and sobbed my heart out.  I guess at that point I should have just gone on and watched The Notebook and just been totally done in.  As I headed down the hall to my bedroom a terrible fog seemed to find its way into my head.  All of a sudden the peace I had been enjoying was suffocating me.  I realized I was extremely lonely....griefus....it was midnight....it was time to go to bed why was I so dang blasted lonely and I certainly wasn't going to call one of my BFF's at that time of night.   Even my sleep was robbed last night by snippet visits by my mom, my dad, my aunt, my brother....they were all there and left me feeling even more sad than before.  I woke up this morning with eyes that felt like rain clouds holding rain.  What a day this was going to be if I could not get this funk to leave me alone.  I got up and went outside....the dog was at the door whining to check out daylight....and when I stepped outside there was God letting me know  I was going to get through this.....the sun was gorgeous as it rose in the east.....it was so cleansing....and I felt the peace replacing the funk.  I sighed and offered up a meek thanks for the glorious site.  You know....that is one of those things I love so about God...even when we don't say anything to him about how we are feeling....He knows and when we least expect it....gives us a reassurance that all is ok.  So here I am.....I mean come on....our 1:00 studio time had been changed to 3:00 and I have been enjoying being lazy until time to leave. Actually,  I am trying to be calm and not nervous....I don't know why....we have done studio before....but not in a while.   I can't wait to celebrate A's birthday and sing with two of my favorite singing partners.  Life is good and I am glad that morning follows the darkness.  Aren't you?